Many moments in the last decade (plus a couple years) have
been filled wondering about my body, feeling uncomfortable with my body,
loathing my body, dang frustrated with my body.
As time marches on and life continues to teach me how to grow up I have
been saddened by my overall perception of the shell that houses my soul. I shouldn’t feel ashamed or embarrassed of
something that is a magnificent gift. My
body has, after all been an instrument in creating four of the most beautiful
little humans to ever exist, hello! She
has wiped tears, served others, and delivers me to and fro on the daily grind. Remarkable really.
Although my body has carried me around doing spectacular
things, the way I maintain this gift has taken its toll on my soul and
spirit.
I’ve known I need to change, but having the courage to
face the cold hard truth is painful and flipping SCARY!! I decided to do it…..you know, get all honest
with myself. I got on the scale (dun dun
dun) it said a jaw dropping tear brimming 287.5 lbs. What….in….the….
Lots of emotions flooded in and landed in the little spot
that hums with anxiety and doubt, only it wasn’t humming it was SCREAMING! HOW IN THE HELL DID YOU LET IT GET THIS
FAR?!
So here I am. 287.5
pounds, but I am brave and hopeful.
Come journey with me as I fulfill a dream of building the
body my soul longs for. You will find
truth, honesty, hope, pain, and hopefully inspiration to face your own demons
as I share my story. I will try to
capture a little of everything, from what I’m eating to how I cope with the
daily struggle to stay motivated.
Kadie
